"I was never satisfied. I had trouble sleeping. I didn’t really fit. I always feel that I’m searching for something deeper, something more. You want to meet other people that challenge you with ideas or with power or with passion. I wanted to live very fully. I wanted to live many lives and explore many things. There’s certainly a side of me that isn’t completely… sane. Or completely ‘even’ all the time. We all have our dark sides."